Hey all!

I'm in the middle of finals right now and only have two left! It's time for feelings of happiness as the semester comes to an end. Not only that but the Summer promises to be one of awesomeness. This summer I'm set to work on some independent features, and that just makes me zuper duper exzited. 8DDD

I'll be working a lot, but this will hopefully leave me with time to draw and work on other things, as my schedule will be film, eat, draw or play games, sleep, in that order.

Speaking of games, I'm in the middle of playing Final Fantasy XII right now. It's been out for a long while, I know, but it still takes me a while to catch up to stuff, or I like to wait until I can buy them at $20. I have to say it now, I *love* Larsa! He is so adorable and intelligent, and his endless storehouse of Hi-Potions is very handy in a fight. I don't cosplay very often or very many characters (in the past I've been Rukia and Toph) but I like him so much I feel inclined to cosplay him. Lol! And this would be my first crossplay. :3

Ah! The secret's out! Mag's an occasional cosplayer! XD

And this segues into my next topic. I don't go to many Anime Conventions. I basically only go to one, in fact, because it is the one closest to where I live and I don't have the time or money to travel far for a Con. Besides, it's a nice one, big enough to be fun, but small enough to not get too crazy. And maybe I'm jumping the gun here, since it's not until October, but anyone here going to Anime Banzai in Utah? It'd be fun to meet people and such, so let me know if you were planning to go. I'll probably be dressed as Larsa. Or Near. I usually do a complicated costume and then a simple one. XDDD

Anyways, dorky spazzy time over now.

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Man! Took me a while to get around to writing this!

BIG thanks to *aluminumcandy for the subscription to dA! Very awesome surprise! I just got on and I had thumbnails on my devWatch! It was fantabulous. Thanks so much!

Nothing much to update. I am killing myself working on all the senior film projects. Just wrapped one this weekend and already have another to move onto for the next two weeks. So classes are insane, out-of-class projects are insaner, and I love all of it.

I haven't drawn much recently, I know. I have a Yuri meme I've been working at slowly, and have not finished yet, but I hope that, with the rate I'm going it'll be done by 2010. I always jump on bandwagons once they've long passed.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day everyone! Hope you all had happy days with friends, family, and lovers.

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Mullins - Mag-enese for "thinking things over," "pondering," and/or "having your mind be too active to let you sleep." I'm sure many of you have experienced this before.

I live! I think this is apparent by my several submissions this week. I'm actually quite happy with myself over this. *pats herself on the back*

So, what has changed? Not a lot, really. Well, and a lot at the same time. Life isn't better (concerning my parents, as well as other things that would take too long to discuss. ) Nope, nope, nope, many things are crap right now. Really crap, actually. Like, it's what crap wants to be when it grows up.

What *has* changed, is me. I am just cheerful. And no, it's not a "I'm pretending to be cheerful so no one worries" sort of thing (though it was that, at first.) I am genuinely happy, because, when I hit a rut, and I see how things are bad, and nothing's going right, my mood takes a swing eventually, embraces the bad, releases it and then I embrace the good. There is so much good to behold.

Hnn, hnn. How very Taoist of me. (I know one person out there will get this, and you know who you are too. )

But yes, drawing. Drawing is good. Keeps me busy, I get to put ideas down and work on things. There are many YCMD linearts done already. I hope to get the illustrations back into swing at some point soon. Gotta love that fanfic. I re-read it recently, and I am still shocked that I had anything to do with it. Wow. I helped in something that's really really good. Go great collaborative experiences!

Gosh! Isn't creating marvelous? It's such a powerful, yet clearly chaotic, random and calculated process. It's invigorating.

Leaving the same song on repeat for an hour and a half is not only healthy, it's a must sometimes.

Pearls of Mag wisdom: When was the last time you told someone you really cared about, that you cared about them? A year? A month? Day? Hour? Minute? Second? Well, if you answered yes to ANY of these it's been too frickin' long. Go call up/holler at/hug/attack someone you deeply care about, and let them know you care. Not only is it healthy to express love, it's necessary to receive it. So says I! Now hop to it! Shoo! Fly! FLy my little pretties! *cackle*

Also: If you haven't seen Enchanted yet...*smack* Get yer butt to a movie theater! Slacker.

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I didn't get tagged. Saw this on ~skeletonsinthecloset's journal and I wanted to do it. ^^

Your Boy Side


[x] you love hoodies.
[x] you love jeans.
[] dogs are better than cats
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team.
[] shopping is torture.
[] sad movies suck.
[x] you own an x-box.
[x] played with hotwheels cars as a kid.
[] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] you own a DS, PS2 or sega.
[x] you used to be obsessed with power rangers. (Trini rocks!)
[] you watch sports on TV.
[] gory movies are cool.
[] you go to your dad for advice.
[] you own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] you like going to football games.
[] you used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] baggy pants are cool to wear.
[] it's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] sports are fun.
[x] talk with food in your mouth.
[] wear boxers.

Total = 11

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Your girl side

[x] you wear lip gloss.
[x] you love to shop.
[x] you wear eyeliner.
[x] you have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[x] you wear the color pink.
[x] go to your mom for advice.
[] you consider cheerleading a sport
[] you hate wearing the color black.
[x] you like hanging out at the mall.
[] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] you like wearing jewelry.
[x] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] you don't like the movie star wars.
[x] you are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. (gymnastics and dance, not cheerleading)
[x] it takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] you smile a lot more than you should.
[x] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] you care about what you look like.
[x] you like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] you like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] you wear girl underwear.
[x] used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[] like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total = 18

Lol! Well there you have it. It's official! I am more of a girl than a boy. All these tastes are what define that, and not the fact that I have boobs. Woo!

I dunno if I want to tag anyone, but go ahead and do this if you like. I had fun, maybe you will too. ^^

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I think it's time I posted another journal to take the place of the last two. Thanks to all who commented with words of comfort and love. I deeply appreciated them, even as I did not reply to all. Had I replied, it felt like I would have not given my gratitude justice and would have come off as dismissive, so I opted not to reply to all of them.

I am feeling much much better. Spending time at home with my parents gets me down, but now that I'm out of there, back in my apartment and starting school and work again. I feel more in control of my life and myself.

It almost feels like I'm running away from the problem, but I do have to get on with my life. My parents need their time and space too, for their own purposes and hopefully to get more comfortable with the idea of one of their "perfect" children not being what they wanted or expected. I hope they do, I know they will, and I still love them so.

And it's good to know that even as there are sad moments in life, moments when you dive into some pit deep in the tower of despair and depression, there will always be someone that opens a window to let light in and reach a hand to pull you out of it. You know who you are, amor. 'Thank you' doesn't even begin to think it covers all of what I wish I could express.

It's interesting how life can be so harsh and wonderful all at the same time. And I never know quite what to think of it.

I haven't posted in a while, I know. I've been working on sketching with pencils again, rather than drawing straight onto the computer with a tablet. Man, am I rusty with a sketchbook and pencil. And no, most of the new drawings will not make it onto my dA gallery.

On a last note: GOSH I HATE BEING SICK!! Runny nose, stuffy throat, coughing. Not fun times, and yet I'm still smiling. ^^

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